Iba Ba Tayo?

Hanggang ngayon di ko pa rin mawari kung bakit kailangang ihiwalay ang mga bagay-bagay kung pwede namang ipagsama-sama. Marahil dahil ito ang nararapat sa kabila ng katotohanang ginagawan ng paraan ng kalikasan na muli itong at ipagsama-sama at guluhin. Siguro dapat nang sundin ang kalikasan para maging madali na ang lahat.

Ito ang naiisip ko habang nakatulala hawak ang may sinding yosi at panay buga ng nakamamatay na usok na nagpapakalma sa ulo ko. Madami akong kaibigang katulad ko (third-sex kung tawagin) na nagsasabi at naniniwalang iba kami (tayo) sa mga straight. Tama naman kasi nga iba ang gusto namin (natin) sa dalawang sekswalidad. Pero kapag tinatanong ko sila kung kailangan ba iba din sa nakagawiang relasyon ang relasyon ng katulad namin (natin), walang kongkretong sagot.

Narinig ko minsan ang isang babaeng nag-comment, "Bakit kasi ang mga bading na yan eh kailangan pang tratuhin na iba? At bakit kailangan nilang i-separate ang sarili nila sa heterosexual society? Eh di ba pantay-pantay naman lahat?" Eto na ata ang pinakamagandang opinyon at tanong na narinig ko sa isang straight na babae. Bakit nga naman di ba? Maraming dahilan o kaya maraming dinadahilan...

I'm Still A Man

It was dawn and we're all busy answering customers' questions and processing their requests when suddenly everyone in the team received an instant message in the chatroom. "Meeting! Now na." is what my supervisors message every time he gets a confirmation from the workforce management that it's all right to get off the phones.

As always, there's waiting and "kulitan" with my best "buddy" in the team, which happens to be a lady physically, psychologically and sexually. We threw  friendly insults to each other while walking down the isle to the conference room where we would have a meeting. Then she said "Bakit kaya hindi ka na lang magpakalalake no?" I was astounded and cracked into an enormous fiery funny monster because of such a very stupid question. But then, I answered "Siguro nadedevelop ka na saken kaya mo tinatanong yan no? Eeeeewwww ka!" And loud laughter filled the air and everybody was staring at us...

While in the meeting, we occasionally chat which made my supervisor a little uncomfortable. He stared at us and threw the question which I already forgot. Ready as I was, I answered the question in a manner no one was able to comprehend. As I was talking my brains out I noticed that everyone was so keen in listening. I was not sure why all their eyes was upon me. Were they listening or what, I asked myself. Was I saying something wrong?

Then, one of my team mates blurted out something. Maybe she couldn't contain it anymore and said "Si GB oh parang totoo lang. Ang laki ng boses at lalakeng lalake pa!" I stopped in the middle of explaining and everyone was stunned for about three seconds. And then laughter consumed every soul in the room.

Never realizing what my tone of voice that time, I was shocked by myself. I laughed my heart out because for the first I was quoted of the manly and deep voice I carry. My super visor even said that I was different at that time and it was believable that I acted so, very, as in manly.

After my red faced (literally) moment I tuned to my best buddy and remembered our conversation before entering that room. She smiled and said "Oh ano? My point naman tanong ko di ba?"